I’ve been experiencing this strong sense of inner spirit recently. It’s a feeling of strength within, a sense of groundedness and a confidence that I’ll be able to not only cope with but decisively defeat any adversity that may come my way. I find quite a wonderful peacefulness in this.
But, along with this sense of inner strength comes the nagging thought that my ego may be a bit out of control, having been taught from a very early age the virtues of humility. This realization leads me to consider my own short comings which include but are not limited to average intelligence, unapproachable countenance and various biases and intolerances. This in turn brings me back to the anxiety that has been a predominant aspect of my nature as long as I can remember. Someone said, Martin Heidegger I think, that anxiety is the fundamental mood of existence. Boy, sometimes I can really relate to that.
So, I’m wondering if I’m better off in the possibly delusional world of inner strength or in the anxiety ridden reality of humble me.
I think I’ll bask in the inner glow as long as I can. Here’s to positive thinking.
I’ll take the delusional world of inner strength haha! Helps me get through this anxiety ridden world. Cheers!
Here’s to sustaining the world of inner strength, lylaalsayyid.
oh, i’m sure the inner strength is real, it’s just that now that you’ve said it out loud, the evil eye is coming to smother it.
sorry about that.